I don’t think words can describe the betrayal and heartbreak felt when you walked out of my life. You ripped my heart out of my chest and filled my head with empty promises.
4 years… 1461 days we spent making memories together, seeing the world, planning our future. I loved every second of life with you, you quite literally were the best thing to walk in to my life and I’m terrified I’ll never find another person who was so patient, understanding, caring and loving to me.
I’m not sure where it all changed for you, but I was blind to it, you were good at pretending. I was happy and thought we both were… I thought we could get through anything together like we always did. Just like you always promised me, forever. It was always meant to be only you, we were each others soul mates. But now I’m sat blaming myself, picking myself apart for all the possible reasons you decided to break my heart.
This year I thought we’d be moving in to the house we fell in love with and we’d be getting engaged. You had other plans that you kept from me and You walked out on me the day after we viewed our dream house together and weeks later was in bed with someone else. I don’t think I can ever describe how broken and empty you made me feel, although it’s embarrassing to admit, my world did in fact come crashing down when the person I loved and trusted the most broke me. I’ve never felt as low as I did when you left, and I’ll always question why you gave me such a beautiful love and relationship and decided to brutally end it the way you did.
You watched me break infront of you and carried on lying and deceiving me, watching me apologise for blaming myself as to why you walked out and still didn’t want to give me any truth. How can the one person I gave my whole heart too watch themselves do that to the girl that wanted to give them the world.
I still feel you in my heart and always will love you. Despite how angry I am at you or how dishonest and cold you were towards me at the end, there is no other love like it in this world that was felt between us.
Maybe in another life you and me will find our way back together. I miss your big blue eyes, your handsome face and just the way your presence filled a room and made me feel safe. You were like my home.
I feel like the luckiest girl to have experienced a love like ours. But now I don’t even think I could look in to your eyes and feel the same way about you anymore. All you have done is fill me with so much hate, anger and hurt, which is strange because only months ago you made me feel full of love, life and genuine happiness.
You’ve left me that broken, I don’t think I can ever forgive you.
Written by fuzzy-bee-52
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