Anytime I feel like I'm moving on from you, something happens. Some weird twisted coincidence puts you back in my mind.
When I'm moving forward, it's like you have a sixth sense. It's like you know. I suppose there's every chance you do know. We shared a connection unlike anything I ever felt before. When I'm moving on, you do something, to let me know I'm in your mind, as much as you're in mine. You send me a message. You unblock me so I can see what you're up to. It doesn't matter what it is, it's so weird and eerie, how you just know I'm on the cusp of moving on.
It's moments like this, sat on my phone, putting my thoughts down, when I truly wonder if we'll reconnect in the future. Every rational train of thought tells me we won't, as much as that breaks my heart, but then every part of my heart tells me you are feeling for me the same way I do for you. Like we're both just waiting for the other to make the move. It's like we're both too afraid to take that chance. To initiate that conversation. To see where it takes us. I'm afraid, I don't want to lose my progress, I don't want to lose this metaphoric high ground. You're afraid. You don't want to seem insecure in your choice. You don't want to make yourself vulnerable. Why else would you be bread-crumbing me? You're better than that. I know you are. You're still that beautifully intelligent girl I fell in love with. Are you afraid to make that move, or is there something else at play I can't see?
I pray every night to a God I don't know exists, praying for you to find your way back to me, and when I make these prayers, something like this happens. You do something to appear back in my life, no matter how small the act is. I don't know if I should make that move, but I pray that you do. Take that risk, I'm ready to hear you out. I'm ready to have that conversation. I'm ready for you.
I've been dating since we broke up, and truthfully I've met some really remarkable people, but they don't make me feel even 10% of what I felt with you. That feeling of raw electric energy from just being around you, the feeling of complete vulnerability, but also security. I feel like you've had those same experiences too since we broke up. The feeling of other people just being... inadequate, through no fault of their own.
I love you. Come back to me.
Written by sleepy-dog-704
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